A few years ago anxiety took over my life. Over the last 6 months I have found myself in a better place in which I’ve been able to ease my anxiety and take back control of my life.
Not so long ago, I couldn’t get out of bed in the mornings, now I wake up at 6 everyday to go to work. I used to be terrified of swimming so I took adult swimming lessons. When I feel a panic attack coming on, I know how to stop it.
But one thing I couldn’t control was my incredible fear of flying. Although I never let it stop me from getting on a plane, I would get cold sweats thinking about it. I would have nightmares in the weeks coming up to my flights. But the flights were so distressing. Sometimes I would literally start shouting out loud, my panic attacks would last for hours and I couldn’t stop them no matter how hard I tried.
Last week, for the first time, I flew without fear. Without panic attacks or crying or shouting. I didn’t self medicate with anxiety meds or alcohol. I simply did everything anxiety told me not to. Instead of clenching my fists, I relaxed. Instead of crying I tried to smile/laugh/ talk to my friends. I took deep breaths and drank lots of water. My amazing boyfriend is always so patient with me and helped me so much.
I’m so proud of how brave I was and my confidence has been boosted. If I can do it, anyone can.
It’s been a tough few weeks. Posting to this blog always makes me feel better and inspires me to be strong. Have a beautiful week and make room for what feels good.